I want to start by saying I’m grateful for insulin that keeps me alive.

I’m thankful for the Dexcom and Omnipod technology that helps me manage my type 1 diabetes.

But. I’m. Exhausted.

The last three nights I have battled dangerously low blood sugar. Friday I told my husband that if I pass out or start seizing, give me glucagon and call 911. Not amusing. Scary!

My Dexcom has been loudly alerting me to my low blood sugar. Waking me when the rebound hours later goes to high. Repeat.

I’m exhausted.

I’m trying to at least meet my Apple Watch fitness goals daily. I am staring at my Bellicon rebounder right now, trying to get the gumption to get on it and get to work.

But I’m exhausted.

This by far has been the hardest part of diabetes – I want to not feel like I’ve been hit by a truck, but I’m wrung out almost all the time. I’m eating low carb, I’m adjusting my pump settings, I’m trying.

There are hundreds – if not thousands – of things that affect my blood sugar.

It’s daunting.

I’m not giving up.

I’m getting up and exercising.

Then I’m going to bed.